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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

+Sick again!!!+

Falling ill again, my body is getting weaker and weaker as days past. Think it's gonna do with the lack of exercise. Hmm... Even since I step into this stage of my life I start to fall ill frequently. Maybe this is my retribution, made many mistakes yet I did not repent nor bring it to a stop.

I know it is suicide if I continue to live in this lazy attitude. Have been wondering how I survive till this stage of my life. Remember I wasn't a bright person at all, yet I manage to pull through and get to where I am now. Never expect a person like me could get into a Uni. I know it might not be a good one, might even graduate with a lousy Certificate (if I don study hard) but I am still glad I make it so far.

As compare to many others I am considered very lucky, cos I have parents who could support me till now, plus I do not have to struggle for a living neither do I have to take care to any siblings. Practically have no burden on my shoulder at all. Although I don have to earn my own school fees but I tried and I know it is tiring to work and study at the same time. I might not be as rich as what you see its jus that I'm a little better off, I could afford almost everything I need however I'm also required to earn for my wants like many others does (they don jus come to me for free).

Overall I am jus a average gal from a average income family. I don't have the luxury to buy myself LV or Gucci wallet neither do I wanna spent my money on Birkenstock Papillio sandals, I hate asking ppl for my wants; also hate those ppl asking their boy/gal friend for this and that. Ppl your partners are not for you to exploit!!! opps i think thats none of my biz. I like going on Dutch, of cos my bf do pay for me but I do treat him back when I can. Anyway that's not wat I wanna blog about.

Wanna talk about X'mas but I think there isn't anything much for me to talk about. I enjoyed it very much thou, with that bunch of fun peep in my life and those unforgettable memories and happenings, I glad that we are still as close as before.

Hmm... Pondering... Regardless which aspects of my life, I seem to fail terribly, it might not be completely true but at least to me I think I failed. I am jus born lazy, plus I never did excel in any other area too. I'm such a pain to my parents. Hmm hmm my education was tough, so as my relationship with ppl. I don have good rapport with my parents, we seldom talk, needless to say, misunderstanding often arise. I have a very different mindset from my parents. I knew they can never understand how much I wanna do things my way and eventually I hurt them by doing those things.

I might seem to have a lot of friends, but most of them were merely hi-bye friends. It's hard to find true friends in this world. I have weird character and often ppl couldn't make out what is in my mind. However i do have real good friends and sista. esp ppl like mich, Lynn, and many others. Hmm think I shall end this entry with 10 things about me. (Some are things that u might already have know if u hang out with me often)

Hmm Lets see...

1. I'm a fickle-minded, indecisive & hot-tempered person.

2. Hate being alone. I'm not so much of an attention seeker but would like to have his attentions.

3. I'm very temperamental; can choose to be emotional or get really cold and heartless.

4. I don have a particular interests neither do I have something I really love. As long as I have a little interest in it, I don mind joining in.

5. I'm a practical person. I only like practical stuffs, so no softy toys or flowers. Unless I ask for it or it is of significances.

6. I love being adored by the one and only one in my life.

7. I love to eat and don mind spending on good food.

8. I'm simply lazy to contact my friends. Rather get bored to death at home then call ppl out.

9. I hate to explain myself, if u think I'm good then I will be good, if u think I'm evil then let me be the evil one. Bwahahahha.

10. I'm never contented and I can't get enough of my life. To me there isn't anything that's enough.

Hmm the above 10 things wasn't good enough to describe the person I am. Hmm I shall do a better one next time round. Pardon my language. I am lousy in writing!!!

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